The Death of Sebastian DeJorge

Horrid after death shudders run through your body.
The blood drenched walls scream in agonizing pain
    as they give off your resilient heat.
I hold your limp lifeless body close to mine.
The thought you loved me never crossed my mind.
"I love you. I always have please
    forgive me."
Those words haunt my dreams.
The thought we shared the same bed.
The sensation of your now long gone embrace.
As I sit here in a pool of blood, I weep.
Not tears of sorrow, but drops of liquid emotions
   swirling down my face.
They well up like my love for you and tear sickly
    twisted paths, screeching their sorrow filled song;
Wiped away with clenched fists.
I bludgeon your chest with heated anger and kiss
    the soft bruises.
Slivers of words escape between breaths.
I loved you. I can't be more true.
I see the gun lie on the floor.
Blood oozes from its muzzle like a beast who has
    captured its prey.
The self inflicted shots and screams of family still
    echo in my head.
Over and over like demented fun house music,
    but alas your gone.
My security stripped.
Manic depressive children run bursting into flames
    down the sidewalks of my brain.
Burdens of existence refuse to lift.
The beast with its one eye staring between mine.
A clap of thunder.
Swift slow-motioned darkness creeps over me.
Once again we dance in each others pajamas to
    music that really isn't there.
Serenity fills my soul as I see our bodies entwined
    on the floor.
Love
Anger
Love
Hate
Love
Revenge
Love
Death
Love
Love