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Artwork commissions from both of us accepted.

We are super reasonable about everything you see.

Just please help. College can kick your ass when it comes to money.




I'll sell just about anything lol....socks? gottem...hair...SOLD...

lol COMMON!!!!

I was reading a journal of someone that has more of a DeviantArt voice than I, and he was talking about the elevendybilliono'clockdollars that we have to spend on this bank bail out.

It got me thinking and I was surprised at how distanced I felt from the situation.

However,I feel that the distance is a result of the inability of the government to fuck me with its problems.

So the banks need money to help with loans and such for houses. I believe (as right or wrong as my angle might be) that its a simple economic class type of problem. Supply and demand.

"They" get you stoked to demand with visions of owning multimillion dollar homes and ALSO get you down on yourself for not ALREADY having one. "They" get into your brain and convince you that you need to over extend yourself to be able to get what you "want."

I feel like what "we" as a nation WANT is more like what we have been TRAINED to want.

In all reality what do I need with a house that has rooms I would never use? Think about how many houses you've been in that have a "junk" room or it was turned into a gym that is now a place to hang wet clothes that cant be put in the dryer.

That is wasted money. Sq.ft = $ that is AT LEAST 150sqft per room and where I live a middle class house is $300,000 for about 1,500sqft. of REAL LIVABLE space. If my calcs are right, thats averaging $30,000 for that room you never use. Now add onto that the interest youre being charged on your loan. Only apply that to the $30,000 for that room. Average is about 6% a month. Thats another $1,800 a month. Now lets say that youre monthly payment is the same as my parents. Somewhere around $1200 a month for the ENTIRE house. Youre not TOUCHING your principle. Not for the spare room even.

Which leads to my MAIN point. Buy what you can afford. I was lucky enough to be given my crippled mothers car when I was 18, and boy was it different from what I saw myself driving. However, at 18 I couldnt afford much else. While driving that car which was 10 at the time and paid off, I charged drunk people to be the DD since my car held a lot of people, and I saved money. When it finally blew up and cost more than it was worth to fix, I replaced it at 13 years old. I now drive a 2002 Mustang.

Live at home until you can afford the rent to live in an apt. If people tried at ALL they would find this to be quite simple. All you need is roughly $3,000 to move in somewhere. Thats security deposit, and first and last months rent. I worked as a Customer Service agent answering incoming calls about credit cards and got 13.00 an hour. I made more money a month than I could find things to spend it all on. In two months I could have moved out, and that is including the gas to drive 30 minutes each way, my bills and some spending money.

People in general are taught to always want more/better things, and the IDEA is not bad, but the execution is all fowled up. Somewhere in there was lost the line, "but be happy with what you have until you can achieve a higher level." Many super famous and rich people lived in the ghetto in an apartment that was less acceptable to a dirty bum than a loog in the face, but they were GRATEFUL and happy that they had even that. My dad says that everyday above ground is a day worth living.



So what if you drive a shitty car. Next time you pass a bus stop, REALLY take a good look at the family waiting in the weather just to do some errands.

So what if you live in a crappy apartment. Its a roof with a shower and a place to sleep thats dry. Walk around Tampa and St. Pete and complain to the men sleeping in doorways about how you wish you had a bigger house.

Anything is better than nothing and our country as a majority has gotten to the point where they think that if they cant have what they want then they might as well not have anything.

Dont get a $300,000 loan for a house you only use half of.

Now there ARE exeptions to what I'm saying, like a family of five would need and use a 4 bedroom 300,000 house. I dont think that you should cram all the kids into one room while you take another just to save money. Do what NEEDS to be done.

Just remember that guy you knew in highschool who never had any kids, and how he always has the coolest gadgets. The money he saved on kids and a wicked huge house is how he affords all the stuff hes got that you envy.

Everything is a choice. Most of the choices lead up hill. Prepare for the climb or dont bitch about falling back down the fucking hill.

The bail out is stupid primarily because we as a nation have over extended ourselves and its DUMBER because of who the gov't chose to delegate money to to supposedly fix the problem.

I dont agree, but I also dont care. It doesnt effect me, because I thought ahead.

All you have to do to get a head is get a good foot hold and hang on while everything falls down around you. Its amazing how much higher you are at the end by just making due with staying still.

The president and the rest of the government shouldnt be bitched at to fix a problem the people created. Some of them are losing houses too. Its no ones JOB but your OWN to find a way to fix the situation. Sure there are some people who because of a position they hold, might be able to help, but you cant dump the problem on them and expect it to get fixed how you want it everytime. The United States of fucking America should be able to rely on the foundation of its being.


Last I checked we were founded on the premise of WE THE PEOPLE.


Not we need welfare.

So a metric fuckton of stuff has happened since last I updated.

Firstly: Its not near my birthday anymore. So present alert is back to a yellow for the time being.

Secondly: I've been spending almost all of my time in Sarasota. I haven't been avoiding anyone but my parents, and they know that its nothing personal and have pretty much let me be. I come back to Clearwater every now and again. More so when there is a reason to come back. So if you are feeling down about not seeing me. Give me a shout. I had to get a new phone so if you cant reach me, have no fear. Electronics are wondrous things.

Thirdly: I need a job....STILL. I haven't had one since like November of last year and I cant go on forever without one. If you know of a place in either of the aforesaid cities where I can get a job, PLEASE let me know.

Fourthly: No, I am not still in contact with Darryl.

Fifthly: I STILL need a gym buddy. I'm on the verge of begging. I have gone a long way towards reaching my goal for amt of weight lost, but there is still major toning that needs to happen. My new goal is to become comfortable enough and good looking enough to be able to be my own nude model.

Sixthly: My photos are all on hold due to the no money thing. I dont have the money to buy chemicals, so I'm cultivating quite the stash of canisters lol. I haven't written anything on paper since I left school, so there haven't been any poems or stories. A lot of music and new people have entered my life,so hopefully there will be a new onslaught of artsy type things here in the near future. Maybe a chance for a second chance so to speak.

I appreciate you for taking the time to actually read this. Especially since its just about the only thing I've posted in months or almost years. I know that I'm pretty much only talking to you my dearest Anthony. Dont worry. I'll be around if you need me. I still have that pesky device you so loathe to speak upon. Hah.


Get ready kids. The inspiration is here. I'll pass it along soon.


-Shea-

I've decided that there need to be some changes made.



One of them is: YOU NEED TO HIT ME UP. Even just to chat. Maybe to hang out. I just know that I need to expand my friends circle. Especially the men.

"'Cause I'm that dame who's got whatcho need. Eyes on the prize pickin' up speed." hah


Two: Everyone needs to be aware of my birthday. I'm sick of them SUCKING. The last birthday I had that didn't blow hardcore was when I was like 11 and my sister and my mom took me to dinner at Rio Bravo. Yea, that place has been closed for HOW long? Exactly. I mean come on. My 16th birthday I took 2 people with me out for a party and ended up sitting alone with my mom eating cake while they all went to hang out, and hit on each other. (Zac and Bethany. You JERKS.)


Three: If you think I should get dreads. Lemmie know. If you know Belinda. They will look like hers. More of an up do kinda thing still rocking my bangs. Not like weird dirty dreads. I think it'll be hot. Goth dreads. I want to get away from the image that I'm trying to be like anyone in particular.



Four: Ive already lost like 20 pounds, and if you wanna be my gym buddy. Lemmie know. It'll be fun. Especially if you like water aerobics. Maybe I should get a trampoline too.

Nothing better than bouncing up and down in a bikini! HEY!!! lol



Five: I have not seen nearly enough movies. I want to see a bunch of movies that people say are "great." I love to cuddle and enjoy a night of popcorn. The best kind are on a port. DVD on the hood of your car at the beach. Crystal Beach here I come. Darryl...its on! MOVIE NIGHT!!!


So, if anything sounds interesting, message me or call me. I love to have adventures. Who knows where you'll end up. (Alachua county. Haha Kristen)

page views for almost 6 months and it only went up by like 5 from last year.

i need to get myself moving and post something here. HOwever i have started drawing mostly now days and only one of the any things i made i actualy like.

Its a little stego style dino named Gil.

I got a mustang. I crashed my mustang. Got it back. Got a ticket. Quit my job and im going to tallahasee....I think thats how you spell it. I dunno.

I was talking to this guy whos really awesome and we started seeing each other and now he wants to get married. However he went to korea for a year in the army and is getting increasingly upset that im not writing him however i send him something daily via the internet and ive written 20 letters.

Im going to tallahassee with darryl. Some of you know my plight with darryl. the plight that for months we were..."seeing" each other and he wouldnt ask me out yet he wouldnt let me date other people either.

Now hes in love with me.




im in love with myself







that leaves no room for anyone else since my heart is small and shrivelled (?) and i am petty and weak.

Zac and i have been talking a bit latey and its pretty cool. Though hes blown me off more than i can count and he talks a great game and pussies out at the last minute when you want to DO SOMETHING.

so all in all i am in high school again only this time im the teacher and i make the rules.

From now on im not talking to any one. Except you. Cause you (anthony) are the only one who ever reads this travisty. Sadly i dont get to talk to you much either. Though i have aim on my phone i dont think it registers that im online to you. Go on sometimes. Though i did get the internet back WHOOO HOO ahha.

I miss you you big self conscious boob. :cuddles: Youre a good man.




I am petty and weak